went to the eye doc he said my eyes are healthy.. n my left eye isint soo good but it's good enough to where I don't need glasses :D
but um.. now I have to go to the heart doc on wed.. hope that goes well.. pretty sure it will all it is :is a heart murmur.. or whatever.. totally looking forward to it (NOT) lala see they gave me some cheap ass glasses to where home cuz they dialated my eyes.. n the thing broke so I pimped them out with a shoe laise hehe
I a feeling alot better than I was been outside playing with the basketball n restling n winning :) still kinda heart broken from it.. but... i'm living and not letting it get to me too much.. jusss takin it a day at atime.. and thankyou gloria.. and the rest for stopping by n helpin me out
when something happens that i don't want to happen, after I cry I get mean. I don't mean too but.. it's just me.. and I don't want to do anything for awhile.. but what people at my house is yet to understand is that I don't want anybody to bother me for awhile thats why i'm quiet because i don't want to get mean and say something i'll regret.. I've been pretty good today tho.. not as mean as usually guess i'm learning to controll that.. I have to realize that the world isin't here to make me feel worse after somethings happen.. most people want to make me feel better.. but i like to make myself feel better..
The puppys gone it's over.. not my fault.. even tho i'm really angry that god didn't let it live.. angry at the world.. why does this stuff happen? I can't understand what that puppys purpus was.. was it to make me feel like shit?? or maybe make me stronger for the next worse thing that is going to happen?? god only knows..
I'm soo depressed right now all 5 puppys are dead.. i miss the lil fellow snuggleing up in my arm.. I miss feeding him.. I can't help but get all teary eyes.. n to make things worse people are trying to messs with me.. i be quiet for a reasion when i'm depressed.. it's because I get mad easily n if u say the lilist thing to me i explode.. only when something i didin't want to happen happen.. my mom wont shut up about the puppy no matter how many times i ask her too.. I really just wonna cry.. and smack myself for letting it die.. kill me plzz.. that was my baby n i juss let it die..
plzz rest in peace baby girl and baby boi.. I loved and still love you..
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doc on wed.. hope that goes well.. pretty sure it will all it is :is a heart murmur.. or whatever.. totally looking forward to it (NOT) lala see they gave me some cheap ass glasses to where home cuz they dialated my eyes.. n the thing broke so I pimped them out with a shoe laise hehe 
I can't help but get all teary eyes.. n to make things worse people are trying to messs with me.. i be quiet for a reasion when i'm depressed.. it's because I get mad easily n if u say the lilist thing to me i explode.. only when something i didin't want to happen happen.. my mom wont shut up about the puppy no matter how many times i ask her too.. 
